I did it

Hi guys!

You may or may not believe it, but I did it.After 5 years of spending my time on subjects like geography, maths and history, I did it. After 5 years of 'relationships' with boys who hadn't even hit puberty yet, crying from laughter with my best friends in class  and making silly jokes about the teachers, I did it. I graduated from high school and I still can't believe it myself.

I finished my exams on May 29th and I was convinced that I failed. I felt like everything was so difficult, even though I revised A LOT. It sucked, because I have a great fear of failure and this didn't make things easier for me. I had already accepted the fact that I would have to stay in high school for one more year. I would make new friends, go on all the field trips again and cycle the same route every single day, again..

But then, a miracle happened. On June 11th, I got the phone call. I was incredibly nervous as you can imagine! We were all sitting around the telephone waiting for THE call. When I heard that my best friend Maaike had graduated, I started to cry and from then on, I cried several times. When the phone rang, I picked it up with trembling hands. Then, the unexpected happened. My teacher said that I had passed all my exams and that I had graduated. I started crying and it took me a while until I finally stopped haha! I finished another phase in my life and it feels so surreal.

Of course my parents then hurried to the shop and they got me cake, balloons and presents. Some family members and friends came over and it was one of the best days in my life. Luckily, almost all of my friends have graduated and I'm so proud of everyone! The whole week has been crazy and I feel so blessed.

High school hasn't always been easy for me but I'm definitely going to miss it. I'm so grateful for all the memories and friends I have now and I wouldn't know what to do without them. I'm going to nursery school after the summer and I'm so excited to do something that interests me. I'm also really excited for a new start. I can now blog and make videos without people judging me, because who cares at such a big school? I can finally be myself now and it feels soooo good!

To everyone who have graduated as well, congratulations, I'm so proud of you! 

Love, Elisa

PS. I hope this post explains why there wasn't a blog post on Wednesday. I hope you understand that everything was a bit hectic!

THANK YOU

Hi guys!

I usually don't post on a Tuesday but I really feel the need to write something right now. Today I made the decision to finally put something about my Alopecia on Facebook. At first, I was so scared because I didn't want it to look like I'm seeking for attention, but  the bald patch got bigger, and I didn't want to have any secrets anymore. I've had some real struggles with covering the patch last week and it really started to bother me. I didn't want it to look like I'm keeping a secret, I just wanted to be honest with my friends and family. Soooo I put it up on Facebook.

As soon as I pushed the 'send' button, likes and comments started flowing in my inbox. The number of views on my blog got higher and higher. My phone was about to crash when I decided to go out for a bike ride. Everything was very overwhelming and I didn't really know what to do, because I felt so grateful. When I came back, I had 1000+ views, something that I never dared to dream of.

I feel a little bit calmer now but all the supportive comments are still coming in. When this post goes online, I think I have over 2000 views on my blog and I can't believe it. I'm so glad that people know about the disease now, something that is really important. People who kept it a secret for years and years, sent me messages that they think it's amazing that someone actually writes and talks about it. For me, It's not a big deal. Okay, I was really nervous about putting it up on Facebook but I don't mind talking about it with people. It's a part of me now and that is completely fine.

I realized that this is what I want to do. Write and inspire. I'm determined to do whatever it takes to make this dream come true. I want to be a succesful Youtuber and blogger and nothing's going to stop me now. I'm even more motivated than I was before and it's amazing to know that there are actually people who read this. This is insane and I feel so blessed.

A big thank you to everyone who liked my post. Thank you to everyone who left a comment behind. To the people who shared it, thank you. But mostly, I want to thank every single person who made the effort to press the link and read it. THANK YOU! You are an amazing human being <3

There will be a regular post tomorrow but I just had to get this off my chest. I'll try to sleep tonight but it will be hard because the adrenaline is rushing through my body.

A dream came true

Hi guys!

there's just a little story that I would like to share with you. 

When I was a very little girl, I always looked at this photo in our living room. On this photo, there were two people sitting next to each other. My parents told me that these people were my grandparents. Unfortunately, my granddad passed away a few years before I was born, but my nan was still there. She lived in Australia, in the bush-bush, as we used to call it. Nana Roo, (Roo from kangaroo, because that's what they have in Australia, right?!) a mysterious woman whom I had never met.

When I got older, I started to realize that if we didn't hurry, it might be too late and that there would be a chance that I would never meet my own grandmother. I wrote letters to this tv-show called 'All you need is love', a program where they bring loved ones together with Christmas. Every single year, I had to watch this on Christmas eve, with tears streaming down my face, because they didn't pick my letter, again.

On Friday 2 January 2015, I finally met my Nana Roo for the first time in my life and it was magical. My dad saw his mother again after 18 years, isn't that crazy? I can finally show her my friends, my theatre school, my school, my room and the person who I am now. I can't wait to hear about all the things she likes to talk about, like her dog or her knitting. I feel like the luckiest person on earth,to be able to spend 2 weeks with the mysterious woman on the ppohoto. A dream came true .

What's your biggest dream? 

Love, Elisa

P.S. I will post some photos later this week, haven't got the chance to make some nice ones!